{"id":9590,"date":"2000-01-28T12:59:52","date_gmt":"2000-01-28T10:59:52","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.sangye.it\/altro\/?p=9590"},"modified":"2021-12-06T20:49:19","modified_gmt":"2021-12-06T18:49:19","slug":"hh-dudjom-rinpoche-prayer-to-recognize-my-own-faults","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.sangye.it\/altro\/?p=9590","title":{"rendered":"HH Dudjom Rinpoche: Prayer to Recognize my own Faults"},"content":{"rendered":"

<\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

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HH Dudjom Rinpoche: \u201cIf you want to establish the teachings, Make them firm in your mind. In the depths of mind, you will find Buddhahood.<\/p><\/div>\n

<\/p>\n

Prayer to Recognize my own Faults <\/span><\/span><\/span><\/strong>by HH Dudjom Rinpoche, Jigdral Yeshe Dorje<\/strong><\/span><\/p>\n

I pay homage to the Guru!<\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

Shakyamuni, Victorious One.
\nSupreme guide of the realm for this fortunate aeon,
\nSons of the Victorious one,
\nAssembly of noble Bodhisattvas who tame sentient beings,
\nLord guru, matchless savior of beings in the dark age,
\nThe three Roots and oath-bound Dharma guardians\u2014
\nAgain and again, I ask from my heart,
\nRecalling you with longing and one-pointed mind\u2014
\nPlease turn your attention toward me.<\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

Take hold of me with your lovingkindness
\nAnd with the power of your unhindered compassion
\nGrant your blessings that my thoughts and aims
\nbe carried out in accord with Dharma.<\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

Through past acts, not without merit,
\nI have obtained this precious human birth.
\nThrough past merit, not slight,
\nI have met the sublime Dharma.<\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

Accepted by the guru, I was able to obtain empowerments,
\nBlessings, and the essential instructions\u2014
\nAll this wealth I now hold in my hands.
\n<\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

But my mind, like a babbling monkey, falls under the sway
\nOf the enticing, deceptive demon of distraction
\nAnd I cannot take advantage of the wealth that is my own.
\nThus, this free, well-favored human birth
\nAnd the lama\u2019s teaching are both wasted.<\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

Now I am at a turning point:
\nAll the teachings that I\u2019ve asked for,
\nAll I\u2019ve received, are like a myth.<\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

My body has the appearance of a practitioner,
\nAnd I have a practitioner\u2019s conceit;
\nMy mind cannot fathom the true teachings.<\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

Lacking even a trace of common Dharma, much less holy Dharma,
\nThe sixteen rules for ordinary social behavior
\nAre just something that I\u2019ve heard of.<\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

Seeing myself behave badly, I\u2019m without shame;
\nSeen by others, I\u2019m unembarassed;
\nMy bond to the teachings is short as a marmot\u2019s tail.<\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

Unable to practice properly true Dharma\u2019s ten virtuous deeds,
\nHarboring sectarian bias toward the one Buddha\u2019s teachings,
\nI slander the teachings and great beings
\nAnd gather up bad karma.<\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

Based on Dharma
\nI carry a great weight of evil deeds.
\nThe more teaching I\u2019ve received,
\nThe more my vision of myself inflates,
\nThough intellectual analyses cannot penetrate
\nThe deep meaning of the teachings.<\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

With conceit, I think, \u201cI keep the Pratimoksha disciplines!\u201d
\nBut the four dharma practices have been lost without a trace.<\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

With conceit, I think, \u201cI posses the precious Bodhisattva training!\u201d
\nBut the Four Boundless Ones are just like pictures of a lamp.<\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

With conceit, I think, \u201cI keep the Secret Mantrayana samayas!\u201d
\nBut, not respecting the first root transgression,
\nI become careless about all the rest.<\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

I can glibly explain the Four Thoughts That Turn the Mind to Dharma,
\nBut my attachment to phenomena
\nShows that my own mind has not truly changed.<\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

Though I rely on a teacher, respect and devotion slowly ebb away;
\nInstead of having pure perception, I have wrong views,
\nAnd see the guru as my equal.
\nLove and respect toward my vajra friends weakens;
\nUnable to endure a few harsh words, I complain constantly.<\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

Lacking thorough training in bodhicitta,
\nThe love and compassion that comes about
\nFrom seeing all beings of the six realms as my parents disappears like mist.<\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

Although I act as if I practice the paths of kyerim and dzogrim,
\nI cannot even cope with ordinary endless delusion.
\nI recognize that the ultimate teaching of sutra and tantra
\nIs emptiness, but can\u2019t make use of that recognition;
\nMy mindstream stays hard as horn.
\nWhen I practice remaining in mind\u2019s true condition
\nI am without stability, yet I mouth off about the profound view
\nAnd toss cause and effect to the winds.<\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

On the outside\u2014I can give a show of good behavior;
\nOn the inside\u2014 desire, attachment, greed rage like fire.
\nThough my body remains in isolated mountain retreat,
\nMy mind wanders into town constantly, night and day.
\nWithout enjoying a real measure of certainty in myself,
\nThinking to act for other\u2019s benefit is just a fairytale.<\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

Although it is impossible that the Three Jewels betray me,
\nDue to my weak devotion, I fear I will betray myself.
\nThus, although I am without the wrong view
\nOf not believing in the teacher and the holy Dharma,
\nIn these bad times we sentient beings
\nAre busily perfecting our bad karma,
\nKnowing, heedlessly, falling under the sway of unawareness;<\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

Failing to maintain mindfulness, we suffer a great loss.
\nWhen I examine myself, I see
\nThat everything I\u2019ve done has only added on to my confusion,
\nThat all my thinking has been stained
\nBy the obscuring emotions and by grasping.
\nNot seeing that even my virtuous acts
\nAre polluted with negativities
\nWhere else is there to end up but in the lower realms?<\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

As for the way I behave and what I\u2019ve done,
\nBringing these to mind, I am sickened.
\nLooking to others, I am only more discouraged;
\nThere are no friends to benefit and ease my mind.<\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

If I cannot take care of myself now,
\nOthers cannot give me refuge when hope is exhausted
\nAnd I\u2019m in the hands of the messengers of the Lord of Death.<\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

To wait for a rescue that can never come,
\nIsn\u2019t that self-deception?
\nThus, with shame and remorse recognizing my own errors,
\nWhatever offenses against Dharma have occurred,
\nWhatever samaya transgressions and violations,
\nI won\u2019t try to conceal from those with wisdom vision.
\nFrom the bottom of my heart, I confess;
\nWith your compassion, please endure me.
\nBe my refuge from the danger of the precipitous, errant path;
\nGrant the deliverance of finding the perfect, liberating path.<\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

My whole life has been spent practicing this and practicing that
\nWith nothing in my hands to show for it,
\nNo attainment.<\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

From now on, avoiding the miserable path of knowing much,
\nAnd missing the one thing I need
\nWhy not go on the path of knowing the one thing that frees all?<\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

Certain, unfailing hope, sole, supreme Lord upon whom I rely,
\nRoot guru who combines all refuges in one,
\nI supplicate you with devotion and one pointed mind;<\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

Supreme refuge, lord of greatest kindness,
\nTake hold of me with your compassion.
\nGrant your blessing that I be able to see my own faults.
\nGrant your blessing that I have no wish to see the faults of others.<\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

Grant your blessing that evil, cruel, and vicious thoughts be pacified.
\nGrant your blessing that wholesome thoughts arise deep from within.<\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span>\n<\/p>\n

Grant your blessing that desire may lessen and contentment increase.<\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

Grant your blessing that I remember the uncertainty of the time of death.<\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

Grant your blessing that I be unconcerned at the time of death.<\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

Grant your blessing that I develop trust in Dharma.<\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

Grant your blessing that I practice impartial pure perception.<\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

Grant your blessing that I develop unfabricated devotion and respect.<\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

Grant your blessing that I persevere, seeing that I have so little time left.<\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

Grant your blessing that I be able to establish Dharma as my ultimate innermost goal.<\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

Grant your blessing that I free my mindstream the innermost practice.<\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

Grant your blessing that I have no obstacles to practice<\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

Grant your blessing that the fruit of my practice may ripen quickly.<\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

Grant your blessing that all conduct with those with whom I have a karmic link may be meaningful.<\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

Grant your blessing that the duality of hope and fear be extinguished.<\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

Grant your blessing that I see nondual wakefulness.<\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

Grant your blessing that I recognize my own innate wakefulness.<\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

Grant your blessing that I hold the dharmakaya citadel.<\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

Grant your blessing that I gain the great effortless certainty.<\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

By means of the great weapon,
\nIndestructible primordial wakeful awareness,
\nMay the void life-force of samsara and nirvana
\nBoth be severed, at once.<\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

Then, in the unending great bliss of Nyema\u2019s feast
\nMay we always enjoy the activity
\nThat is beyond joining and parting.<\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

In the pervasive space of evenness,
\nEven the word \u201csuffering\u201d does not exist\u2014
\nSo who ought to be striving for happiness?<\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

In the Kingdom of Samantabhadra
\nHappiness and suffering are of one taste;
\nWithout grasping, they liberate of themselves.
\nMay I attain Samantabhadra\u2019s kingdom in this very life!<\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span>\n<\/p>\n

Written by H.H. Dudjom Rinpoche, Jigdral Yeshe Dorje (1904-1988)<\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

Colophon
\nThis is a supplication, confession of faults, and an aspiration-prayer combined in one.<\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span>\n<\/p>\n

One night early in Water-Pig year (1983), my wisdom consort Rigdzin Wangmo had a dream in which appeared a female companion who had often appeared in her dreams. The girl said, \u201cNow you should ask Rinpoche to write a supplication prayer. Alright?\u201d and left. Later, on the tenth of the waxing moon, she appeared again, saying, \u201cWhy haven\u2019t you asked about the writing of that prayer?\u201d<\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

That next morning, when we were discussing the dreams and the prayer, I said, \u201cThere are already plenty of supplication prayers, but not enough people who do them.\u201d Rigdzin Wangmo insisted, saying, \u201cNo matter whether it\u2019s short or long, you must write this supplication.\u201d<\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

Then I thought, \u201cThese days there is danger from disease, war, and famine. In order to protect people from these dangers, I should write a prayer reminding the Compassionate Ones of their vows to help beings.\u201d But although I was thinking of writing one, due to the distraction of many events, I didn\u2019t have the chance.<\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

Once again, on the evening of the 10th, the girl appeared, as before. She said in the dream, \u201cDon\u2019t neglect the prayer that I asked for before. There is a great need for it!\u201d<\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

So, I thought to write it on the 15th of the same month. On the night of the 14th, I prayed with one-pointed mind to Guru Rinpoche, asking for his blessing in order to compose the prayer, making this aspiration, I went to sleep.<\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

The next morning at dawn, in my own dream, I was at the head of a large hall like temple. Out of nowhere a young white man appeared in white clothes, with long hair spread out over his shoulders, holding a pair of cymbals. he rolled the cymbals, making a lovely sound, and danced toward me, spiraling closer and closer, in circles toward the right, dancing as do the Ging. He said:<\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

\u201c<\/span><\/span><\/span>If you want to establish the teachings,
\nMake them firm in your mind.
\nIn the depths of mind, you will find Buddhahood.<\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

If you wish to visit Buddhafields,
\nPurify ordinary deluded attachment.
\nThe perfect, excellent Buddhafield is near at hand.
\nDevelop diligence to practice
\nThe essence of the teachings.
\nWithout, who can gain the siddhi?
\nIt is hard to see one\u2019s own faults.
\nSo, pointing them out to oneself
\nIs a crucial instruction.
\nIn the end, when faults are, one by one, removed
\nEnlightened qualities increase and shine forth.\u201d<\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span>\n<\/p>\n

At the end of this poem, he rolled the cymbals and then crashed them together, and I awoke. After I woke up, I did not forget what he had said, and I understood it to have been advice on practicing what to accept and what to reject. I was regretful that, although I had actually seen the face of my only father guru, I had not recognized him.<\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

I, Jigdral Yeshe Dorje, old father of the Nyingma, wrote this from my own experience. May it be of benefit. Sarvatha Mangalam.<\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

Notes<\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

The four dharma practices:<\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

not returning verbal abuse;<\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

not returning physical abuse;<\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

not returning anger for anger;<\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

not returning provocation even though one has been provoked.<\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

The four boundless ones:<\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

boundless love;<\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

boundless compassion;<\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

boundless joy;<\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

boundless equanimity.<\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

The first root samaya transgression:<\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

disparaging one\u2019s master.<\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

The four thoughts that turn the mind to Dharma:<\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

keeping in mind<\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

1) the rarity of the free-well-favored human birth;<\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

2) the inevitability of death;<\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

3) the inescapability of karma, cause and effect;<\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

4) the vast inherent suffering of samsara.<\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

Kyerim: developing stage meditation.<\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

Dzogrim: completion stage meditation.<\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

Translated by Bhakha Tulku and Constance Wilkinson, Boudhnath, Nepal, 1989. Originally published at Sahayogi Press, Kathmandu, Nepal.<\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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